On the 21/12, I went on a vacation to Langkawi. In the bus, I msg him and tell him da truth. It was quite long untill he replied. But he said "din expect this. But it is ok to be friends :)"The moment I read the msg, I was a little dissappointed. However, I cannot expect for the better. It is good that he replied my msg. On the 2nd day of my vacation, he msg me again, this time a christmas msg. I was quite happy. I felt better after telling him the truth. Whatever ans that he gave, good or bad, I will still accept it. Anyway, my move is a bit too late, when I should have told him 2 years ago. I regretted alot. If I had told him a few years back, I will not have to suffer like this. This thing is killing me alot. Is like a thousand knives stabbing.
However when I read his blog today, I was utterly sad cause 1 of his pose if I am not wrong is talking bout me. It is crystal clear that he is angry wif me. But even if you are angry at me, please dun treat me like this. I noe u will never read my blog but pls, I beg u again, dun talk behind my back. If you are a gentlemen, you are not going to do this to me. I am telling you now that msg is not a prank and it is me who write it.
If I know that you are going to reply me this way, I wouldn't have even think of sending you the msg. Do you know that I have to think very carefully on what I have to say cause I am afraid that a single word can hurt you. I even ask Aisyah to edit it. And this is what I get in return??? Sometimes, i think it is a waste of time to think about you. As for now, only god knows how I feel.
What Sarina says is sometimes true. It is good to stick with male friends than have an admirer. Anyway, now is not the time to find a partner.
2008 is coming very,very,very soon. I hope I settle this as soon as possible. I am not going to drag this any longer. I cannot stand it anymore. If I forget him means, I will forget him forever. Face the fact!!! He just treat me like a junior. Nothing else. Not someone special. He will sure choose someone from sp. Someone who is prettier than me. Some race as him. Not some who is going to be sec.4 next year, wears a scarf, someone who is quite and not close to him at all.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
I 'm turning 15 as of today... yea...
Today i woke up at 7am even though I set my alarm at 6:30am What makes me want to stick to my bed is the cozy and warmth feeling from my pillow. Together with the rainy weather, i wish I could be sleeping beauty(sleep forever). However due to fancy drill training, I had to sacrifice my sleeping time.(Not because of Terry!!!) After my breakfast, I went out of the house. In the lift, I msg Aisyah to tell her that I had already went out. We will usually meet at (Jeffrey bus stop) before we went to school. It is like a routine for me and Aisyah.
When i alight from the bus, Aisyah was not there yet. So I thought that she might come late again. After waiting for 3 mins, I started to feel very tense. I received a msg from her that she just came out of the house. So I waited. 5 minutes later I start to get very irritated. Different ppl have diff level of patience. I hope you know what i mean.Then I received a msg again telling that her father will be sending her to school. Knowing that it is 8:30am, I quickly crossed the road and walked to school. When i reached school, everyone had already put on their gloves and ready to fall in. I ran to the classroom and changed to my boots I followed them to fall in. I was so called glad that I am not the last person. Sarina told me that Fizzy have not came yet. Finally, when both of them came the training started.
Starting, we did a little bit of warm-up drills like stationery drills. After that, we separate ourselves into the (12-men) and (18-men) squad. Not and official name... Sorry... Me, Aisyah and Ye Kai was in the 12-men squad. Fizzy, Angie, Sarina was on the other group. I don't really know what happen to them but I can tell you what really happen in my squad.
My squad was not that high as compared to the other squad. We always kept to our own CCA. We only bothered to know each other names. However, the sad thing is that my trainer, terry had a hard time remembering my name. I mean, wat is so difficult to learn a name. Come on. If he remember his girlfriend name so easily, why can't he remember mine??? Even my chinese friends can remember my name after i told them once.
However, I should admit that he is a good trainer. I upholds with him strong leadership and willing to help people when in need. I just don't understand why some of my friends anti him. Then he taught us the different formation. First, we must slow march then break to form a cresent. After that, we had to kebelakang and form two lines facing each other.(Boy&girl) then we hentak to form a square. From the square, we form a triangle and do our own group solo. Then we need to form and arrow and march out. The End. Sounds complicated is'nt it? Anyway with alot of effort and cooperation put in, I am very much assured that we will put up a magnificent performance!!! Jia you 12-men squad!!! You can do it!!!
At 12 noon, we are released for lunch break.As for the SJAB members, we make use of this time to go home and change to new clean clothes to come to my house for my birthday celebration. I and Aisyah when to CWP first. She bought some crackers from value shop while I bought choc milk tea. We accidentally met with Fizzy and Ye Kai.
When I reached home, I managed to had a warm bath and pray. After that, I helped my mum to prepare the food. Guess wats the menu for today??? Jeng, jeng , jeng... Drum roll plz... Nasi Lemak. Even though this is not my favourite food, I still enjoyed eating it as I felt hungry after the training.
At around 2pm, Priscilla, Sylvia, Aisyah, Fizzy, Ye Kai, Jeffrey and Zheng Hui arrived. They welcomed me with a few badae gifts. It was so lovely. After that they ate the Nasi Lemak followed by caramel for dessert.
Following that, we watched a very scary movie called "stay alive". It was really damn scary. After that we watched 881. They went back at around 6:30pm. I really thanked those had gave me the badae present. Not forgeting Wei Hao n Pat who want to come but was unable to.
However, despite all this I still felt unhappy I someone didn't turn up. I understand that he is in poly and quite busy now. All the best to him. Got to go... Nitez
When i alight from the bus, Aisyah was not there yet. So I thought that she might come late again. After waiting for 3 mins, I started to feel very tense. I received a msg from her that she just came out of the house. So I waited. 5 minutes later I start to get very irritated. Different ppl have diff level of patience. I hope you know what i mean.Then I received a msg again telling that her father will be sending her to school. Knowing that it is 8:30am, I quickly crossed the road and walked to school. When i reached school, everyone had already put on their gloves and ready to fall in. I ran to the classroom and changed to my boots I followed them to fall in. I was so called glad that I am not the last person. Sarina told me that Fizzy have not came yet. Finally, when both of them came the training started.
Starting, we did a little bit of warm-up drills like stationery drills. After that, we separate ourselves into the (12-men) and (18-men) squad. Not and official name... Sorry... Me, Aisyah and Ye Kai was in the 12-men squad. Fizzy, Angie, Sarina was on the other group. I don't really know what happen to them but I can tell you what really happen in my squad.
My squad was not that high as compared to the other squad. We always kept to our own CCA. We only bothered to know each other names. However, the sad thing is that my trainer, terry had a hard time remembering my name. I mean, wat is so difficult to learn a name. Come on. If he remember his girlfriend name so easily, why can't he remember mine??? Even my chinese friends can remember my name after i told them once.
However, I should admit that he is a good trainer. I upholds with him strong leadership and willing to help people when in need. I just don't understand why some of my friends anti him. Then he taught us the different formation. First, we must slow march then break to form a cresent. After that, we had to kebelakang and form two lines facing each other.(Boy&girl) then we hentak to form a square. From the square, we form a triangle and do our own group solo. Then we need to form and arrow and march out. The End. Sounds complicated is'nt it? Anyway with alot of effort and cooperation put in, I am very much assured that we will put up a magnificent performance!!! Jia you 12-men squad!!! You can do it!!!
At 12 noon, we are released for lunch break.As for the SJAB members, we make use of this time to go home and change to new clean clothes to come to my house for my birthday celebration. I and Aisyah when to CWP first. She bought some crackers from value shop while I bought choc milk tea. We accidentally met with Fizzy and Ye Kai.
When I reached home, I managed to had a warm bath and pray. After that, I helped my mum to prepare the food. Guess wats the menu for today??? Jeng, jeng , jeng... Drum roll plz... Nasi Lemak. Even though this is not my favourite food, I still enjoyed eating it as I felt hungry after the training.
At around 2pm, Priscilla, Sylvia, Aisyah, Fizzy, Ye Kai, Jeffrey and Zheng Hui arrived. They welcomed me with a few badae gifts. It was so lovely. After that they ate the Nasi Lemak followed by caramel for dessert.
Following that, we watched a very scary movie called "stay alive". It was really damn scary. After that we watched 881. They went back at around 6:30pm. I really thanked those had gave me the badae present. Not forgeting Wei Hao n Pat who want to come but was unable to.
However, despite all this I still felt unhappy I someone didn't turn up. I understand that he is in poly and quite busy now. All the best to him. Got to go... Nitez
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