On the 21/12, I went on a vacation to Langkawi. In the bus, I msg him and tell him da truth. It was quite long untill he replied. But he said "din expect this. But it is ok to be friends :)"The moment I read the msg, I was a little dissappointed. However, I cannot expect for the better. It is good that he replied my msg. On the 2nd day of my vacation, he msg me again, this time a christmas msg. I was quite happy. I felt better after telling him the truth. Whatever ans that he gave, good or bad, I will still accept it. Anyway, my move is a bit too late, when I should have told him 2 years ago. I regretted alot. If I had told him a few years back, I will not have to suffer like this. This thing is killing me alot. Is like a thousand knives stabbing.
However when I read his blog today, I was utterly sad cause 1 of his pose if I am not wrong is talking bout me. It is crystal clear that he is angry wif me. But even if you are angry at me, please dun treat me like this. I noe u will never read my blog but pls, I beg u again, dun talk behind my back. If you are a gentlemen, you are not going to do this to me. I am telling you now that msg is not a prank and it is me who write it.
If I know that you are going to reply me this way, I wouldn't have even think of sending you the msg. Do you know that I have to think very carefully on what I have to say cause I am afraid that a single word can hurt you. I even ask Aisyah to edit it. And this is what I get in return??? Sometimes, i think it is a waste of time to think about you. As for now, only god knows how I feel.
What Sarina says is sometimes true. It is good to stick with male friends than have an admirer. Anyway, now is not the time to find a partner.
2008 is coming very,very,very soon. I hope I settle this as soon as possible. I am not going to drag this any longer. I cannot stand it anymore. If I forget him means, I will forget him forever. Face the fact!!! He just treat me like a junior. Nothing else. Not someone special. He will sure choose someone from sp. Someone who is prettier than me. Some race as him. Not some who is going to be sec.4 next year, wears a scarf, someone who is quite and not close to him at all.
