I felt very restless today. Maybe is due to the long shift that i work today. I was doing buffet for the first half of the day. I don't mind doing buffet during lunch time. I just need to stand by all the meat and top up for only once. Unlike dinner, where the restaurant runs like a mad house. I have to always do top up for almost everything. Some more the seniors know that i can do buffet they let me suffer alone, knowing that i am a lady. A trainee some more. Where are the seniors when we need them? Huh... i don't know how to vividly describe how i feel rite now. It's complicated...Only god knows.

Just now when i was doing floor, I saw i of my old friends dining in with her family. My sister knows her brother. I felt so inferior when i was cleaning after them. They were there spending quality time together. But what was i doing? Looking like an idiot with my oily face asking for dirty plates. I felt so low. Like they were up there and i am still on the ground. You know what i mean. Sometimes i kept asking myself. Why should i clean after people? Why should i work under people's command.

Sometimes i don't understand why the workers in SG must treat the manager like god. They get so scared when they walk pass, they hide somewhere to eat because they scared the managers will see them. I mean why must all this happen? Why must we ask permission before we eat? What if we are really really hungry? Then we must die2 search for them before we can eat. What kind of policy is that. The managers were behaving like as if they own the restaurant. Wah...they are the biggest. "you must respect me". I don't give a damn shit about that kind of attitude...People like should work alone and not in F&B sector.

yay new laptop !!!

Today I work up till 9pm. Like WTH! Why do my manager bother to send me early when it is 1hr 30 min to closing. Haix... Anyway ma'am maricell told me that the reason is because she saw that norman is not doing his work at buffet. Part of me feels guilty because before we start work i die2 told him that i wanted to the meat area. Then he give in to me because he pity me.

Usually the meat area need to do alot of topping up as compared to the desserts area. So from far maybe what the ma'am saw what maybe correct. Anyway next time i felt that it is not a good idea to put 2 person in buffet.

After that when i went home my father gave me a surprise. He bought me a laptop. Even though i do not have the chance to choose the model that i wanted, but still the one that my dad bought for me is quite nice. It has most of the latest features. Alhamdulilah...I wrote today because i wanted to familiarise my fingers to the keypad. Ha...ha... that's all folks!!!

Outing with mum

Today i woke up super early (ok,lah if u feel 8am is early). But for me it is. Ok lah. I have to admit that ever since i worked at Seoul Garden i have been waking up very late. But i have my own reasons as to why this is so. Firstly, all my energy had been drained out when i worked there. Second, i need to be charged in order to start the next day afresh. There are many others but this to is the main ones.

Actually, the main purpose to go out is to submit the Mendaki Bursary/ Loan. Wait is it both or either 1? Nevermind. Anyway who cares. Even before the poly starts i had already feel stressed out with their financial forms. At first we had already decide on using CPF savings. A few days later, my mom decided to switch course and instead took the Mendaki scheme. Haiyo. Like WTH!!!

I honestly feel that it is redundant because whether i apply for Mendaki or not it is not confirm that i am going to get the bursary or not (looking at my results...) How i wish all this can end smoothly. I want to start my poly stress free. You know what i mean right?

It was like raining the whole day plus my shoes are wet no matter how i tried to avoid the puddles. In addition to that with the terrible blister at the back of my leg. Only god knows how i feel at that moment. My mom on the other hand continued to get paranoid the whole time when i was with her. Even when we were in the bus, she kept on blaming my dad for not being a responsible father towards his childs education.

I don't mind listening to all her grievences but look. I still got my limits. I know you are sad but when something went wrong please don't start blaming other people. I hate that character (loathe) And when she get stressed out she will start scolding me and keep saying that i am being rude to her. Sometimes i feel that i am in a difficult position. I seriously do not know if i should pity her or just let her mumble all to herself.

After that we went to geylang to buy my Shadira facial wash. I tink if i did not buy it just now i will be like sratching my face like a monkey. Gosh my face is so addictive to that thing! Following that we had lunch. About 12:30pm we went home by train.

On the train something funny happen. I was sleeping then suddenly this couple push their baby pram toward my direction. Imagine how their baby looks like! So cute!!!! Can u just imagine the dad is a eurasian and the mom is a chinese. Aw....I feel like biting her cheeck especially when she smiles.the baby kept on kicking me.. Ha..ha... Just imagine if that was my child... lol i m too far sighted already. I have not even start poly and now i am thinking about having a child. Ok so cut the crap out,k.