I felt very restless today. Maybe is due to the long shift that i work today. I was doing buffet for the first half of the day. I don't mind doing buffet during lunch time. I just need to stand by all the meat and top up for only once. Unlike dinner, where the restaurant runs like a mad house. I have to always do top up for almost everything. Some more the seniors know that i can do buffet they let me suffer alone, knowing that i am a lady. A trainee some more. Where are the seniors when we need them? Huh... i don't know how to vividly describe how i feel rite now. It's complicated...Only god knows.

Just now when i was doing floor, I saw i of my old friends dining in with her family. My sister knows her brother. I felt so inferior when i was cleaning after them. They were there spending quality time together. But what was i doing? Looking like an idiot with my oily face asking for dirty plates. I felt so low. Like they were up there and i am still on the ground. You know what i mean. Sometimes i kept asking myself. Why should i clean after people? Why should i work under people's command.

Sometimes i don't understand why the workers in SG must treat the manager like god. They get so scared when they walk pass, they hide somewhere to eat because they scared the managers will see them. I mean why must all this happen? Why must we ask permission before we eat? What if we are really really hungry? Then we must die2 search for them before we can eat. What kind of policy is that. The managers were behaving like as if they own the restaurant. Wah...they are the biggest. "you must respect me". I don't give a damn shit about that kind of attitude...People like should work alone and not in F&B sector.