Dear Allah,
I was not so happy with my dip plus results that i received today. But I know that i was expected to get that kind of results because firstly, i did not finish the paper and secondly, i felt that i did not study enough for my test.
I do not know to whom i should say sorry to because i did not put in "my best" in the test as well as my work.
Currently, at work i still own Regina my Rail Corridor walking map. I really don't know what is happening to me, ya allah.
The negative attitude that i still practice in life is PROCRASTINATION. I was given 1 month to complete the walking map but i exceeded the time. I took my own sweet time to do it.
When August came, there were suddenly more work to do and i had to ignore my map for awhile. Ignore does not mean i did not have to do it anymore. Ignore simply means i got more work piling up waiting for me to give my attention to them.
What is happening to me, ya allah? Pls guide me Allah....pls guide me. Pls remove the lazyness in me. I can't stand it any longer. I have seen a lot of things came crushing right in front of me due to my lazyness.
I really want to change ya allah. I really do...please guide life me to change into a better person ya allah....Pls have some mercy on me ya allah.
The only last chance to prove myself is the upcoming FYP project. I promise myself to put my all in this project. I want to do it!!! I really do.
As for my crush, Zul i am not sure to continue liking him or to just leave him alone. I don't want to become desperate. I want him to come to me and really tell me that he loves me and willing to take care of me. Ya allah, pls show me the signs if he is trully meant for me. I want to focus on my studies and i also want him to focus on his.
Ya Allah, please refrain the 2 of us from doing maksiat towards you. I depend on you to tell me the ending of this fairytale. I love him so much...Ya allah hopefully my love for him will not exceed my love for you.
I started to miss him ever since my internship starts. The long silence between us is killing me each day. What more with him texting me and telling me that he is suspected with HFMD. I am so worried about him. I don't know why.
Ya allah, please grant him the happiness that he ought to receive from you. I will always pray for his happiness and comfort with his family and loved ones. Ameen...
